You look like crap!

So, its been 10 day since surgery today. I've been recovering at my families "compound" in the high desert. I have some of the most highly skilled Nazi nurses and engineer fireman paramedics looking after me. I even have a veteran bypass patient to tell me how I should be doing things! I work for the doctor. I know what I am SUPPOSED To be doing. The rules are: Walk, ALOT. Drink, ALOT, and get ALOT of protein in. Well, that is all easier said than done. I was going to be the model patient, the golden child. But when you have gone through it, its a whole different ball game sister! The first few days were rough because I was hurting alot. Doing anything other than laying around and sipping on water was a challenge. The successful veteran bypass patient ( my dad) prodded me to walk several times a day. I didn't feel like moving. But he got me up and walked the property with my several times. After all, who wants to get blood clots and die, Not this girl! Let me tell you one thing about this bypass recovery stuff.... its rough! Its harder than I thought it was going to be! I have zero desire to get up and walk, and even less desire to eat or drink. Imagine that. But its a real issue. I was trying, but its hard to do something when you have NO desire to do it. In the last few days I have gotten out of the house a little here and there. We have went to lunch with the fam. I get my soup broth, or egg, and I'm satisfied. But then I want to go home, because even the smallest outing exhausts me beyond belief. Today was my 2 week check up. I was nervous because of the staples. I had six incisions all over my belly, totalling 14 staples. I have had anxiety for days about having these things removed because I was sure it was gonna hurt bad! My mama drove me to my appt, and I was very anxious to get on that scale. I have been eating meals out of cups that they serve you sides of ranch in at restaurants, so I was expecting MASSIVE weight loss. I stepped on the scale and the number popped up. 8 stinking pounds. You have to be kidding me. I have went through HELL, and I lost a newborn baby? I wasn't happy. The doc is happy if I am getting 64 oz of fluid in daily and somewhere around 60-70 grams of protein. When I really starting thinking about what I have been consuming, reality hit me. Ive been lucky to get maybe 20oz of fluid in a day. And IF i drink a protein shake in my day, i have 40 oz of protein. If not, which alot of days I haven't, I'm getting somewhere between 10-15 grams of protein in. So no wonder I feel like I have been hit by a truck. No wonder taking a shower wipes me out beyond belief! As soon as I walked in, the girls were like wow Jen, you look horrid. Then another girl said, man, you didn't even do your hair today did you? I told my mom, why didn't you tell me how bad I look! I met with my favorite doc in the work Dr. Douglas Krahn, and he said Jen, are you nauseated? Because you are looking pretty pale and kind of yellow and green. LOL thanks! love you too! He gave me a little spanking and told me that if I don't get it together and start eating and drinking more, I'm going to be in the hospital, and that is definitely not something I am interested in! So, here I lay, sipping on my crystal light. I hope if I can get more protein and water in I will start feeling better. I'm off for another week, and my mission is to get it together so I wont get the "you look like crap" comments anymore!!!